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PHANTOMa
02:00
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I caught a glimpse between the letters
Black text - white background - sans serif
Contorted and mangled spine
Is this what is left of the body?
Do we feel if no one is reading?
Are we alive if no one is breathing?
Monitors flickering - decayed fireworks
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Rodeo Kojima
02:34
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There's something about the way you stare out the window
It's 3am and I can hardly see the road
We drive up 29, our hands intertwined, and there’s nowhere I'd rather be
Keep nodding off, like you do
Oblivious to the world around you
I swear we’re getting home soon
I swear we’re getting home soon
That first kiss when our teeth clinked
I knew it from the start, I knew I cared too much
I know I don’t deserve you, but I swear that I heard every word you said
When things fall apart you push me to pick up the pieces
You keep my heart beating
You keep me sane
And somehow you forgive all the awful things I've said
You keep my heart beating
You keep me sane
Always telling me we'll make the best of things
Just two flickering street lights
And mine just can't seem to keep in time
Just two flickering street lights
I'll stay awake with your hand in mine
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I’ll never be like you, or fixate on everything you hate
I don’t need prestige. I’m stepping off your pedestal
I’m not one for conversation, but you make me bite my tongue
The dryness in the center of my throat becomes a moat
We’re taking ten steps backwards
My conscience makes it hard to move on
We’re taking ten steps backwards
Don’t let a cubicle become my swan song
Keep it steady, take it easy, just settle
Why does it matter if we're stuck on rewind?
I can't turn it off and hope things will get better
But I keep marching on and on and on
Everyone is burning out on life
And I’m going out in a sea of flames
Another catastrophe, another tragic crash, another fatal mistake
So take this letter and light a match - I’m done with it
I don't want to be remembered
I just want to be happy
I’m not one for conversation, but you make me bite my tongue
The dryness in the center of my throat becomes a moat
I’ll never grow up
I’ll never stop caring about people I love
Nobody needs a lecture
I won’t just get over it
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Who are you? I don’t expect an answer
Explaining empty rooms becomes a mouthful
Standing on the edge - life is a tightrope with no end
Standing on the edge - my intentions are better left unsaid
Hold on to the status-quo. Dream of an empty funeral
Restless at 3 am - another day filled with dread
Just close your eyes - there is no right side of the bed
I kept on telling myself that I was better than this
But every deadbeat was once a hopeful kid
We’re all waiting for something else to begin
One day I pray that this year will end
The words ring true but affirmations wear thin
Replace this space with anything different
Always ended up in second place
Never could quite make it to the plate
Still self-righteous until the end
I've always been the biggest disgrace
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Blue Creek, Room 109
02:29
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You never looked my way, so I learned to take it day by day
Hollow me out - fill me up with self-doubt
It's so superficial, but you always get your way
Sharpened glances through the rear view
There is nothing I can say
Formalities reach around my shoulder
With a grip as cold as ice
Cross my fingers and dot the eyes
Fall asleep and pray I die
The search party is never coming home
Deep down you know that you'll rot alone
Don't speak my name
Rip that look off your face
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I’m stuck in the same head-space
Sharpened words on demand
Always ready to bring you down
With that same dumb look stuck on my face
I can’t help but fixate on all the small things
Another layer of insecurity
I try to say the right things
But in the end what does it mean
Jump through hoops to show you that I care
We still replay the scene
I’m not “searching for that someone” - I just don’t want to lose them
These words always sound the same - I just want to prove them
Am I misguided? Am I the one to blame?
Always lacking tact and emotionally frustrated
Please take it back - just stay in your lane
Making rash decisions, and you never deserved it
You’re always wrong, you’re too perfect
Over the years, I swear I’m getting better
Just try to stay focused, and hold it together
Would I lie to you? Only if you want me to
Bury me deep in your chest, while I keep holding my breath
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Karai Pantsu
02:39
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I ran out of devotion
Apathy got the best of me but I’m still standing
Follow your bliss? Tell me, how would you like it?
One day you’ll admit
There’s nothing worse than being content
Just drown me in sympathy
Let me go - I don’t need saving
I’m running on empty
And I bet you know I haven’t got a clue where to go
Hold up your trophy
That’s all I’ll ever be - another talking point, your favorite joke
The more I try to read your mind, I just keep getting lost
Motivation is hard to find
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It's been a few weeks since I came around
I’ve been trapped in conversations with a ghost of my former self
I fear your body breaking down
My nervousness never seems to help
What am I supposed to do without that guiding hand?
If there's one thing I want to believe
It's that you’ll make peace with your concern for me
With your heart in my hands - when you’re on that hospital bed - I’ll listen
That sea salt breeze, a crashing wave, and the memory comes back to me
I was up to your knees, your hand in mine, as foam bubbled up along the shoreline
You always deserved better
A handwritten note on crumpled paper
How many years do you think we have left after all the time spent wasted in my own head
I’ve been tired, I’ve been selfish, but I’m quickly learning that every life has an end
How many times have I tried to leave?
Believing that I’m adding strain
But you always know just what to say
To keep my mind from leading me astray
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The walls are in motion, and my mind is overbooked
My stomach churning as I black out an old photo
And the mirror is a liar
Telling me to dig my own grave
Set this room on fire
Charred flesh with no name
Sentimentality is slowly killing me
You’re just a ghost of who I used to want to be
Please just give me a break
Nothing has ended up the way I wanted it to be
Where are you going?
Where did this body come from?
So pick up the scalpel
Just a bit, just to feel
Close my eyes, clench my teeth
Everything I see makes me sick
Don’t look at me
Just close your eyes - avert your gaze
Don’t look at me. Don’t fucking speak
Why won’t you just tell me your fucking name
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10. |
Paradigm X
03:40
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I feel it coming - that pounding in my head.
It’s like a needle - sew me up instead
What would you do if I threw everything at you?
Would you cry? Would I let you down like I used to?
You know the mirror never lies
Didn’t see them coming in the rear-view - not like I’d expect you to
So grab the wheel and spin
I’m barreling towards a head-on collision
So please just put me down
I won’t relate to a single thing you say
I’ll wring myself out - left a stain on a perfect day
Step back, call off the cavalry
Nobody’s leaving, nobody’s leaving
Shut down, it’s not like me
We’re all bleeding, I’m still bleeding
I’d be better off thinking like you
I’d be better off thinking like anyone else
Shoving fingers down my throat, only 15 years old
Who could have known fluorescent lights could be so cold
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11. |
Untitled
01:01
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12. |
Knife Edge Death Match
01:59
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